Today I woke up feeling I had time and it was not necessary to hurry the day up. I held there, I didn’t let the day advance, and I paid attention to what was happening in my emotional world.

Emotions are associated to relationships with others. The other may be oneself, also people who are walking with us right now, or who offered their presence to us at some time in the past, either for long periods or just a few minutes, even seconds.

Today I allowed myself to observe, eagerly and free of judgement, and I found out, with crystal clarity, that I love, deeply love, all human beings who have taken a part in this play that is my life. I even discovered myself loving those humans who apparently offered difficulties to me.

A sentence from a very, very important person in my life has been uncomfortably hovering over me for a long while. The exact words are “You and I never had a relationship”. Whenever this phrase reached me, it hurt me and it had an unsettling effect. I felt lost before such a categorical affirmation, which was not in tune with my feelings. Today I saw, clearly, that it may be true that he has not had a relationship with me but, undoubtedly, I did indeed have a relationship with him, and I still do. What’s more, I realized that this relationship is beautiful, because it has been an engine that has generated love in me along several years.

This sudden awareness that I may have a relationship with someone who does not have one with me has been a blessing to my soul. From that realization, then, I was able to dive more deeply into my feelings and to wholeheartedly enjoy allowing all that love flowing —which had been so far quite repressed due to circumstances— with honest comfort and with comfortable honesty. It is overwhelmingly beautiful to realize that it is possible to feel love for someone who does not love us back. It is really wonderful to love like this, truly without expecting anything at all in return.

Before this insight, I gradually visited several light beings who momentarily were near me in the past. Then, it was great to discover that once having found that new valve of love without conditions, that warm and fulfilling emotion flowed towards each of the persons I offered my attention to.

Later, something interesting happened. I imagined —or maybe “I was imagined”— having abandoned this three-dimensional experience, entering that new place, and meeting again all the people I met in this reality. Once there, I especially observed those people with whom I experienced tension or conflict… and a sense of huge gratitude invaded me.

I felt like sharing this discovery as well as the following personal reflection:

NO PERMISSION IS NEEDED TO LOVE.

Patricia Schiavone

PS: Lo busqué en español pero no lo encontré. Quizás un día lo traduzca, con tiempo y corazón. Mientras tanto, confío en que entre ustedes hay quienes comprenden el idioma… o usan algún traductor automático.